Saturday, November 29, 2008

There's a hole in my heart

Papa Sarasota 1, originally uploaded by KnitterRunner.

A rather long absence, I know...any delusions of making it through November with a post every day went out the window rather quickly. I'm just not an every day sort of blogger, you know?

My life was completely turned upside down this month - I lost my best pal, my Papa, on November 6th. He had a rough year - he beat lung cancer last winter and had various problems throughout this year. His body just didn't have the strength and his mind didn't have the will to fight on.

How I miss him. There is an ache in me that is almost unbearable at times. We - my mom and dad, Sean, Mark, Karen, Mari - feel our loss of him so acutely. I know that time heals but I'm at that point where it feels like nothing will ever me the same again.

I said his eulogy at the funeral. I hope that it was a true tribute to the man who was so much more than a grandfather to me. He was truly a second dad, a babysitter, a playmate, and a best pal - and I was his "little pal" well into my 30s. I am thankful that I had this last year with him, after he and my folks moved to Florida.

The words are just not coming today...I could try to carry on and talk about my knitting (you can get a lot done sitting in a nursing home...) but for today I will just say....

I love you, Papa. Love, your little pal xoxo

Monday, November 3, 2008

Jumping into the fray

I know, still need to finish talking about San Francisco...

I just want to put it in "writing" that I am on board for NaKniSweMo. Yup, after a zillion pairs of socks and other assorted smaller projects, I have finally cast on for a sweater! My choice you ask? Call me jumping on the bandwagon if you insist - I'm going with the February Lady Sweater in some scrumptious yarn that I can't talk about yet because it's realted to the aforementioned trip to San Francisco that I'm not done talking about.

Sean thinks it'll take me forever...supportive guy, eh? His eyes got a little wider when I say, "oh no, I'll be done by the end of the month." And then he laughed when I told him about NaKniSweMo. I just ignored him and continued knitting.